I’ve never talked much about sex
I’ve never written about sex until now
That’s unusual because there’s so much sex around
Have I had sex?
Please, I have five children.
It’s extraordinary the feeling I had
during the sex I’ve had
But I felt guilty
after the sex I had
I never asked why guilt was a part of the sex I had
After a time the guilt passed
Then it was just the pleasure I had
I feel guilty writing
about the sex I’ve had
There were times on the road when I was tempted
to have sex
I didn’t
I was afraid if I did my career would end
with the church I was in
I didn’t want to hurt my wife and children either
That’s why I didn’t have sex then
As time passed my desire for sex waned
Not quickly but indeed it did
I took pills to have more sex again
It was embarrassing
For afterwards I couldn’t relax
Not even while shopping at the market a few blocks down
Hunched over
wearing a hat and sunglasses
I was spotted and asked
Why I was hunched over?
I hurt my back I said
I felt like I was lying to my mother again
So I didn’t take those pills again
Alas, I was relaxed once again