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A note from Dr. Hendrix
At my age I decided it was finally time to be honest about something I had never written on — and the long tangle of pleasure and guilt I once carried around it. I wrote it because candor about the things we are taught to keep silent is, I have found, its own kind of healing, and I would rather be honest than proper.
— Dr. Roger Hendrix · We share these stories so you can know the family behind GreenTeaHP.
I’ve never talked much about sex
I’ve never written about sex until now
That’s unusual because there’s so much sex around
Have I had sex?
Please, I have five children.
It’s extraordinary the feeling I had
during the sex I’ve had
But I felt guilty
after the sex I had
I never asked why guilt was a part of the sex I had
After a time the guilt passed
Then it was just the pleasure I had
I feel guilty writing
about the sex I’ve had
There were times on the road when I was tempted
to have sex
I didn’t
I was afraid if I did my career would end
with the church I was in
I didn’t want to hurt my wife and children either
That’s why I didn’t have sex then
As time passed my desire for sex waned
Not quickly but indeed it did
I took pills to have more sex again
It was embarrassing
For afterwards I couldn’t relax
Not even while shopping at the market a few blocks down
Hunched over
wearing a hat and sunglasses
I was spotted and asked
Why I was hunched over?
I hurt my back I said
I felt like I was lying to my mother again
So I didn’t take those pills again
Alas, I was relaxed once again